Hey, hey, hey. It’s Thursday but by the time I post this then it will be Friday, the worst day for a new blog post but it is what it is… Happy Friday! I suppose this blog is more for me at the moment but it’s for y’all too. For me, it’s to keep me honest, get it all out. It’s therapeutic. For you all, hopefully helpful, a little motivating (?!?), if anything somewhat entertaining.

Me, I’m like you, probably in a lot of ways. And in a lot of ways I’m just bat shit crazy! I’m busy, I have teens, I have a full-time job, I try to workout 4 times a week and eat somewhat healthy on top of that. And in case you are new to me and my blog, my kids play baseball, lots and lots of baseball.

Can I pull all my hair out now? I mean seriously, my life is mostly good. It could be worse and I know that. Please know I’m thankful for my world, but as you all may know, when you are in your “own” world, you lose sight of the bigger picture. But that’s neither here nor there in this lil ol blog. This isn’t about politics or world news. It’s about finding a healthier balance in my world. To shed the pounds I’ve put on over the past several years. And to hopefully not gain them back! Crossing fingers! Forty is creeping around the corner. I’m not ready!

So as of yesterday, I’ve been on my new journey for 3 weeks. Truly it’s not really new but it’s my journey come out of hiatus. It’s getting back to what I know is good for me. And mentally, I’m getting there. It’s just a little easier everyday to just keep on keepin’ on. Getting back to good habits. Preparing things in advance. I still have a long ways to go but I feel I’m on a good track and it’s not worth it to give it all up so soon.

Physically, I’m getting better at my workouts. I’m lasting to the end. I’m pushing through to the end. Sometimes I want to stand there and stare at a wall, but I’m not as whiny as I started out. For the 4th of July we did the Lumberjack 20 Hero WOD:

20 Deadlifts (275lbs)⠀- women 185lbs – Scaled to 155lbs
Run 400m⠀
20 KB swings (2pood)⠀- women 1.5 pood
Run 400m⠀
20 Overhead Squats (115lbs)⠀- women 75lbs
Run 400m⠀
20 Burpees⠀
Run 400m⠀
20 Pullups (Chest to Bar)⠀- scaled to jumping pull ups
Run 400m⠀
20 Box jumps (24″)⠀- women 20″
Run 400m⠀
20 DB Squat Cleans (45lbs each)⠀- women 30lbs – scaled to 25lbs
Run 400m⠀

In case I haven’t been clear, I don’t run well. I’m heavy. I don’t like running. And my foot was hurt not to long ago. But I really don’t like running. I also know I had to stop being a whiny little cry baby so I was going to run(jog)/walk/crawl. Deadlifts weren’t too bad and I jogged the first 200m before walking. Then I jogged/walked back. KB swings were quick but I didn’t want to go back out for 400m. I mostly walked 200m to the turnaround point then jogged/walked back. I surprisingly didn’t do terrible on the Overhead Squats. But after 15, I went to using just the 35lb bar. Went back out to jog but was walking. One of my favorite motivating boxmates, Shane, was telling me 20 on, 20 off as he went by me. So that’s what I did. It was a struggle. But I did it. Shane was always at a point passing me reminding me to keep on going. I stumbled through the rest of the workout and boy o’ boy the last movement of Dumbbell Squat Cleans was killer. My legs were smoked. And I knew there was still one last 400m run to go! Another favorite motivating boxmate, Tory, said she would go out with me on my last run. When I grow up, I want to be fit like Tory! She’s the one that told me I should be there for this workout so she felt like she should suffer with me one more 400m run. And she pushed me to the end and I was thankful! And I jogged more than I walked! BOOM! Thank you Shane and Tory for being so supportive!

So yes, mentally and physically things are starting to shift for the better! And the scale is moving down too. It’s moving really, really slowly, but it’s going in the right direction. Only 50+ pounds to go. hahaha.

Coach T changed up my macros for the next two weeks. Hopefully I can hit them. I’m out of town this weekend with one of my kiddos for baseball. We have a kitchenette, so maybe I can cook some food and make some healthier choices. It’s hard to be on the road. Road trips calls for sugary and salty junk! But I ate my oatmeal/yogurt combination and some cashews. Yay me!

But then I ate an Arby’s Market Fresh Sandwich. It’s not the worst thing but of course I could have prepped or chosen better. Ah well. It’s still a process and I’m not trying to be perfect, just better! There’s a chipotle nearby as well as some other healthy alternatives. So if I don’t get to cooking, then at least I know there’s somewhat good stuff around.

I know it was a holiday week for everyone, but just remember to stay on track. It’s ok if you stumbled or flat out jumped off a cliff. Just get back up and get back to it. Do work! Many years ago, someone told me… “hey, if you get a flat tire, you don’t get out of your car and slash the other 3 tires, do you? No! You just fix the one flat tire.” So, if you had a flat tire in your routine, it’s ok. Fix the flat and move on. Don’t turn the rest of your week into a depressing sadfest. Make a point to FIX it and move on!

Have a good weekend y’all!