It’s Monday! And I’m almost 3 weeks into my “stop being fat” journey! I know that sounds terrible, but it is what it is. My journey to good health? Sounds better, but I’m not here to make everything sound like I’m frolicking through a magical forest. It’s a necessary evil at this point! And I’m not frolicking anywhere. I’m dragging my feet and pouting every time I’m in front of the stove cooking my “healthy” food. How terrible am I at positivity?!?! Geesh, someone slap me already! Ok don’t really slap me. Unless you want to get punched in the face.

It’s working though. I’m still grumbling but I’m making progress.

I have my macros. I’m close to getting the numbers, but I still don’t hit them perfectly. I’m not mentally ready to be at a measuring science but I’m getting better at just eating healthier in general, so I feel the more precise measuring will be something I do sooner than later.

The number on the scale is getting lower but at a VERY, VERY slow pace. It’s progress but I want Biggest Loser progress! Not really, but really. Too bad that’s not the healthiest way of doing things. Coach T says I’m doing good. It’s a process. Really, deep down, I know this. I’m still having a hard time with it all.

I’m trying not to stress over it. I’m trying to only eat good things. I did, however, eat twizzlers this weekend. TEN twizzlers to be exact. It’s a little excessive. So much unnecessary sugar. Ugh. But that was my only terrible fault this weekend. I did eat out as well at Rosa’s Cafe and Boston Market. But I had salad at Rosa’s and a chicken meal at Boston Market. It’s better than Buffalo Wild Wings or Subway or wherever else I could have eaten. So a couple of wins even though there were some misses.

As for working out. I made it to 6 workouts last week and I did some extra on Saturday as well. So woohooo for that. On Thursday, we worked on getting heavy singles on Snatch and Clean & Jerk. (For those of you unfamiliar with those terms, get your mind out of the gutter, those are Olympic Lifts.) I was at about the same maxes as I was several months ago. So I feel good with those numbers. And hopefully will have some PRs in the near future!

Yes, I’m stumbling along, but I’m stumbling in the right direction. Trying to to tackle on too much for fear of failing miserably keeps me focused. Small steps will get me to my destination. I just have to stay the course.