Slowly but surely, I’m getting there. Disciplined. I’m following the rules. I’m playing the game. I have a goal and I need to meet it. It’s taken me less time than I gave myself credit for, which is awesome but I’m not fully there yet. I still want a cookie.

Some will say, it’s ok, eat a cookie. It’s ok to have a cheat day. And I know it’s not the end of the world to have a cookie, or a beer. I’ve already had the beer, believe me, I know it’s OK. But that’s not the point right now. The point is to get disciplined. And one day, I can have that cookie and I won’t fall off the wagon. But right now, I know I’m not there. If I eat a cookie, you might as well give me all the sugar… all the sugar in the world, cause I’m gonna want it ASAP.

At least I know this about myself. So instead, I pack my snacks. I wait to get home to heat up my chicken or steak and sauté some spinach or other veggies. I plan each meal and snack. I am now thinking ahead of what restaurants are near whatever baseball field we are at so if I get desperate, I have somewhere to go.

I’m still in the boring mode. I’m eating for a purpose. It’s the same thing everyday. Eggs, overnight oats, chicken, broccoli, rice, fruit, tapioca pudding, steak, spinach, maybe some more rice and maybe some more fruit. It’s boring. But at least it’s tasty. Spices are my friends. I’m closer to my macros which is good, but I still eat too much fat. It’s not too terribly over the mark, but if I eat out, I definitely exceed my fat intake. On-the-go food kills me in sodium and fat… ALWAYS.

My biggest challenge will be next week, when we are in a hotel in Lubbock for 6 days. A hotel with only a microwave and probably an itty-bitty fridge that doesn’t even stay that cold. And on the road for 10 hours. I will make hardboiled eggs and I will make my overnight oats. But I’m not sure what else to do. I’ve been relatively good, I don’t want to wreck it all in one week! HELP!

The workouts

I don’t know if anyone cares exactly what I do on a daily basis. I’ve posted some workouts and may continue to do so depending on the workout. It’s CrossFit. It’s a challenge, daily! I went 4 days last week. Which is my goal. But if I can only make 2 days in a week, I’m not going to cry. And if I can make 5 or 6 days, then bonus!

I did however, find the DISCIPLINE to get some physical movement Saturday morning before my son’s baseball game. Players are expected to arrive at least an hour before game time. An HOUR or more of parents sitting and waiting. Typically, I go find coffee, food, and read a book. It’s an hour that I could be moving, but why would I do that? Well, I wouldn’t. But this past weekend, I finally did.

We were at a high school and the track was right across from the baseball field. I wasn’t exactly sure what I was going to do when I got there, if anything walk. And maybe jog. But that was still a big maybe. I started off walking a lap then just kept on for a full mile. In that mile, I decided I would do lunges. So after the mile walk, I started lunging. After about 20 yards, I was dying. So I walked 20 yards, then lunged the next 20 yards, etc. I walked the curve of the track and then decided 10 yards on/off would be better. I was getting smoked. But after a walk around the curve, I figured I could handle one more lap and be done before game time. So I did that and was sweating like a mad person. It was good and Sunday morning my legs/glutes were dead. So yay! Now to keep it up. But the lunging in general is something I should consider to do more frequently.

Progress is being made. I’m happy with that. I’m not taking two steps back for every step forward, which is my typical M.O. There’s been a few hiccups here and there, but no major meltdowns. I’m looking into the CrossFits in Lubbock so I can drop in during the week. If anyone has a suggestion, please let me know.